when i told you that i loved you
i was sure i meant it
i told you i would always have your back if you were weighted down and drowning feeling breathless
so why the hell am i
the one to pull away this time
i was reaching for your belt and you were moaning but i wasn't
i was breathless.
i'm sending mixed messages.
i had to call you cause i been up tossing and turning
and finding it harder to sleep
i think i'm just haunted by all of the thoughts of the alternate future
we promised to be
i keep on checking my phone but the minutes just keep ticking on and demolishing me
light from the screen getting harsher the rest of the room getting darker and harder to see
never adjusted to see in the dark, no
i never adjusted to see in the dark
i guess that's the problem with me
my pupils get larger and darker and swallow the whites of my eyes when you're talking to me
i keep on waiting and waiting for you to text back and acknowledge to me
that you're sending mixed messages.
tell me this was not an accident
this was not mistaken
this was not for practice
this was real as you could make it
tell me i was not just something on the side for you to play with
i gave all i had to give
i hope you did the same
cause i know this was not an accident
this was not mistaken
this was not for practice
this was real as i could make it
you were not just something on the side for me to play with
i gave all i had to give
i hope you did the same
(mixed messages)
we were sending mixed messages.
credits
from mixed messages,
released February 15, 2018
written and produced by tony the scribe.